Those words give me a swirl of emotions...we're bringing home a new 'baby' tomorrow (big sigh)
It's been just a little over a year since we said 'good bye' to the 1st one too fast & too soon...
My heart's real happy and real heavy in tandem right now. chugging along down life's railroad, always met on either side with joys and sorrows, I'm learning the older i get that you can't know deep love without knowing deep loss. It makes the journey more meaningful and often worthwhile (noting heavy to myself on that one).
Like with many of the changes that have been bestowed on our family in the last year, we're excited, we're ready to move forward, there's a little trepidation and on our hearts, those 'soft spots' remain. Those spots are there ever-nudging us to be present in this moment and the joys in it. To not be afraid of the sorrows, the disappointments because the lesson in those is important too.
So this sounds/feels really philosophical all on the basis of getting a new puppy, but for our family it's a culmination of sorts. It's a smile from God, it's filling a space that's been so hollow and so empty, it's an important piece of our puzzle - this new puzzle - that's being added.
I gently asked bubba last night if he minded if Amos (yes, that's gonna be sweet boy's name) 'borrowed' his nap blanket from school to help him feel cozy with his new family. He sighed real big and said, 'welllllll, I'm gonna need it for naps...' quickly catching himself remembering that he's not taking naps at school anymore and conceding with an 'ok'. Heart strings tugged a little here - this is bubba's blanket he was sent to school with at 3 months old - he's had a lot of naps with this blanket. The concession here is that the older I get the more I'm of the 'share & enjoy' mentality with things - if it can't be that, then the value quickly fades. They're just things after all - what you do with them is what gives them meaning ♥
So, bringing Amos home is a real big thing. That lil' puppy can't know how we're putting our hearts on the line for him and that's ok. The physical preparations, the emotional ones - he's coming into our home and will be a big part of our family. He's going to be loved whole-heartedly, likely against his will at times, but fervently nonetheless.
I am looking forward to the memories we'll make and the way our hearts will be expanded yet again - life moments like that truly are blessings. We will never forget our 1st baby and the unconditional love she showed us. She made us better people and will always cross our minds with thoughts of love of admiration of her sweet soul.
a change is gonna come and we're ready...see you very soon, Amos Bleu ♥